Well, this is three days in a row for the exercise tape. I made it through the first two days without any major food mess ups. Yesterday I discovered that my daughter had bought some fudge and brought it home and put it in the refrigerator. Apparently it isn't as enticing to her as it is to me. It is still there after almost a week with very little of any of it gone. I did find myself sneaking a few slivers, but not enough to mess me up. I wasn't really tempted to eat all of it because it is hers and I know she paid for it. I am not a thief. However my son works at the store where she got the fudge and even gets a discount on the stuff. He had to work yesterday. I was major tempted to either go buy some or get him to bring me some home. My husband is a sweetheart and he loves me thin or fat. He really doesn't look at me any differently when I gain the weight. He would have gotten in the car and gone and bought the stuff if I had asked him too. He doesn't want to sabotage me but he can't say no to me either. All those choices were some powerful temptations to overcome. I have a huge sweet tooth and it is really really good fudge.
I am proud of myself though, because I did it!! I just kept saying over and over " I want a smoking hot body!" It did seem to work.
Here's the problem though. I am not going to go the rest of my life without that fudge. I have got to break the addiction and find a way to live within reason where sweets are concerned. I didn't give in yesterday but what about today, tomorrow, next week, or next month. What is reasonable to expect from myself?
I feel strong about it right now. I don't think the fudge will be a problem today. I guess I just keep praying and keep repeating that phrase. "I want a smoking hot body!"